20100108
unemployment is the worst feeling you can get out of life.
and it's made worse with the one-every-few-days shouting.no,quarelling.and my brother ain't helping either.
not to mention my body clock is crazily screwed up so i'm not losing any weight.
my life is at its worst.it can't get worse.
1:49 AM
20091230
this is not how it is supposed to be.i'm still interested in the things happening to you,yet every ounce of whatever shit feeling i had is long gone.-
6H gathering later.it's been years since majority of the class got together.looking forward to it.
right now i've got a scar ont he top of my lip and on my left apple cheek:/
o wells life ain't a bed of roses.
1:48 PM
20091228
i wanna dye my hair a lighter brown.i'm not kidding my hair looks absolutely natural;it's only 1% lighter than my original hair colour.
grah.
and i need to finally get that curling iron.and pray that the zit on the top of my lip won't leave a scar after i intentionally pop by accident.ha.
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i wanna get hired.like now.
11:10 PM
20091227
click here for the photos from my tripit's only part of the collection,but i can't be bothered to upload the rest because it's mainly scenery.taken by my brother.
if anything came out good from this trip,it would be that my jawline can finally be seen.haha.
yoksan loved then present i got for her.and thanks for your belated birthday and christmas gift,dear!
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growing up is an excruciating process.provided that you stay true to being a kid.
1:55 PM
20091225 fresh start.
back from the trip.blessed christmas.
just created another blog with tumblr.not for private purposes though.it's for my future blogskins.for now,the new blog is simple,plain and very unnoticeable.i'll have to figure out the codes for a bit before i can start blogskinning.
will be creating a new account for blogskins.
currently waiting for the MOE to approve my application to be a relief teacher(i know i know,but the pay ain't bad).first time looking for a job and i've no idea how to write resumes because kids of my age are supposed to look for retail jobs,which i don't like to do.hopefully MOE allows me to be a relief teacher(they only process applications on working days,and it is obvious that this week is christmas week)so i can keep a good distance away from the kind of job nearly everyone my age is doing.
i should have went for the job attachment.
as for resumes,i have all the time in university to learn how to write that,and CV.for now,apart from praying that i get to be a relief teacher,i'm praying that i score well(by well,i mean VERY well)in my 'A' level so i can secure a scholarship or something that can finance my laptop,my tuition fees,part of my school fees,and hopefully basic fees such as air tickets if i join some exchange programmes.parents have no CPF so their savings is all they've got for retirement.and on top of me going to university,they have to pay for my brother's poly education.i just wish the government made it free for every child to study up to secondary school,then subsidise school fees in tertiary institutions.
in the mean time,while waiting for my approval(so that i can apply for another job immediately if i fail),i'm intending to make blogskins again.first for this blog,then for the new one(i cannot figure the wierd codes on wretch),and then for the oh-so-loved blogskins website.hopefully i can create a good reputation for doing nice work and maybe,just maybe,i can sell my works,like say create a wholly customised blogskin for a small fee.crazy,but workable,provided i persevere.
issues with sticking-one-of-my-feet-into-the-real-world aside,can you believe how much more we are paying for certain things in singapore?
we all know the basic chain of retail,best represented using food.refresh: farmer plants food,gets paid a miniscule sum of money for 1 kg of grain.buyer sends grain to be packaged and stuff like that,and gets paid 5 times the amount he paid for the grain.second buyer(usually big big companies) distribute grain to areas who desparately need it,and jacks up the price.the people pay like 10 times the cost.
boring,but we all know this stupid system.but knowing is one thing,experiencing it is another.
before my trip i fell in love with this pair of headphones(mentioned in earlier posts)-chocolatey-coloured,and looks like a button-which costs S$58.seemed a little pricey when compared to others not-as-nice-looking-but-equally-good-quality headphones that cost around S$30 average.
i went to china,hoping to find the headphones i love so much(after all,around 90% of goods in singapore are MIC) at a cheaper price.on the second last day of my stay,i found it,sitting next to its fellow pearl white button headphones,nicely tucked into a mess of merchandise whereby at least half of them infringes copyright.
i bought the headphones.i swear it's not a fake.and it is definitely much cheaper.by that,i mean a whole lot cheaper.
my brother paid(yes i know i'll not bully my brother too much until he starts poly)RMB30 for it,which is around S$6.
yes,it's 6 bucks in prc vs 58 bucks in sg.
the difference is not just apparent.it's VERY apparent.the singapore price is approximately 10 times the price in the production place.
man oh man.no wonder i feel so poor in singapore.
this means i must work harder to earn money and start to help provide for the family.poly education alone is not cheap,but still manageable.university education alone is a little bit pricey,but we can still make ends meet.put the two together....i wish that the salary for the parliamentary members would stop rising and start to go back to the level it should be(which is lower than their current salary)and provide more financial help to people who are obviously not well off but are not poor enough to apply for financial aids.
enough complains.it is christmas.
2:20 AM
20091207 i'm wierd cos i hate goodbye.
6.12.2009
last time the UN clique of 08s03 is meeting up.priyanka came to meet us at cck t give us gifts and then she's off.
failed shot.haha short people should not stand at the back.
failed again.i forgot to countdown.
finally.
haha then we bought the stuff needed to make steamboat and we head off to yee2's house.
"say cheese!"
anh pretending to be a virtuous girl.haha.
i think i look better without the face:/
food ready to go for a dip in the hot spring!
posing with food.
yayness.
set the table.and take photos!
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we felt like camwhoring with food and so before yee2 joined us at the table...
practice shot 1.
shot 2.
failed!
success!
anh trying to do a facial.
full pot!
burnt!i wonder how.
after much stuffing and shoving the food into our bodies...
99% done.
cleaned the plates out!
we resolved to keep away from fishcakes for a month.
then helping yee2 with prom stuff.
posing with her dog.
anh doing what she does best.
then my pre-18 celebrations!
strawberry cake!
fugly pictures of me with my mouth looking open.
the cut cake.
look!it's 3 pieces of cake!
thanks for the gift!they remembered what i used to say casually!!!
*touched*
many shots of the gift.
cake time!
the lost Singa.haha.
priyanka's gift for me^^
was around 9 when it all ended.went back home.my new gladiators was found out.
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then the edusave thing came in.the stupid deadline was the 3rd.dad settled it this morning.i hope i can still get the $$.haha(i guess?)
starting to pack for the trip like finally.will put up pictures soon.
12:23 PM
20091204
for some reason,i feel empty.i guess it's the sudden freedom that i've acquired,for right now i'm rotting away,slowly.it's excruciating.
going to visit the juniors today.for some reason i'm unsettled,unnerved.there's no explanation i could provide,which is unusual for i tend to be able to rationalise all irrational things.
is it because i know i don't look the same?or that...that person?or am i just plain nervous about meeting people i just...don't really know after so long?
grah.i worry too much.
11:44 AM
